To cease smoking is the easiest thing I ever did, I ought to know because I’ve done it a thousand times.
Day .75
I had my last cigarette this morning, around 11. I haven’t been an avid smoker recently. But I’ve found an excuse to buy a pack every now and then. This last packs excuse was New Years Eve. I’ve mostly been a social smoker, but I’ve turned to it because of stress as well. It’s not much of a habit, but it easily became part of my life. I could go all day without a cigarette, and then someone would mention smoking, and I’d want one. Because it wasn’t habitual or an addiction I was able to justify it for so long. I knew I could quit if I wanted to, but I didn’t really want to. But now I want babies. It is no longer only my life I would be damaging. So if I want to get pregnant, I need to be healthy. I need to quit. I can’t be selfish anymore. I hope that I can blog about quitting and it will help. Tana was smoking earlier while I was on the phone with her and I really wanted one, too. But I’m fine now. It’s just about 10 and I’m going to go to bed soon. We’re almost to day 2.
I’m a little frustrated, and it’s partly my fault. Robby and I aren’t financially responsible. But we want to start a family. So I am trying to get everything in line. I don’t know HOW MANY people told me, “You’ll never be financially ready for a child.” blah blah blah. So when I finally decide that I think we’re ready to try I hear, “Maybe you should wait a while until you get things in order.” Now, I’m not blaming anyone, it will be mine and Robby’s choice when we decide to get pregnant, not anyone else’s. But shit. If you can’t keep your opinions straight, keep them to yourself.
I bought the Make Up For Ever Mist&Fix that I mentioned previously and I LOVE it. I do NOT recommend using it everyday, however. I don’t know if it’s because I fell asleep with with a full face of makeup on New Years Eve, or if it’s because I used it for 3 days straight, but I have a couple pimples. It could just have been stress or the alcohol from New Years (since I rarely drink) but I’m a little broken out. I’ll only use it a couple times a week and see if that helps.
Since it’s Sunday.
I do, too.
laughs, all around.
